I leave for Haiti in less than two weeks! Woah, now that I actually am seeing that, it is unreal! I'm beyond excited, I cannot wait to see the little missionary kids I love so much and I cannot wait to see the little Haitian kids with their big white smiles! I am praying that the Lord will use my skills and abilities to help out the missionaries in a big way. Although, I am beyond excited I am still a little nervous. I'm dreading being away from Matt for three weeks, I'm dreading not seeing my parents, grandparents, in laws, youth group, and my friends for three weeks. I'm terrified that tbecause I will not be working for three weeks our bills will be able to be paid.
There is nothing wrong with being nervous about big steps in your life, especially life changing ones. The important thing is what you do with those nerves. If they keep you from following the Lord's call you are in trouble. I am nervous, but I also am faithful, and to be honest I'm more faithful than nervous. When we are called to serve and love others in the name of the Father He never said it would be comfortable or easy. It's scary....but it's worth it!
The missionary whom I will be going to help has been emailing me a lot the past few days. She has just been telling the type of things I'll be doing while I'm there, asking me to bring things with me, asking if I'm good at or know how to do certain things, she even asked me to type up a newsletter for the school I'll be working at! I love making newsletters (it's the mailing I hate) so to make one and then just email it on is my kind of job!
Because I will be gone for three weeks I have so much that I have to get done before I hop on that plane. I have to make hair bows before I go for our children's group at church (they need them for the last day, which I will be gone for), I need to finish making the hair bows that I am actually taking with me, I need to pick up malaria medicine, start packing, buy snacks to take with me, buy/find all my travel sized stuff, find all my skirts and the shirts that go with them and that's just the stuff I need to do at home.
At work I have to make three weeks worth of bulletins, write down instructions for the ladies who are covering for me in the office, I had to prepare ALL that mail that would need to go out while I'm gone, PLUS do the stuff I normally do in a week for the rest of this week and next week. On top of all of this I need to find time to have quality time with Matt, my mom, my dad, my grandma, and my friends before I go! Whew, I'm tired just thinking about all this!
Because I am human I keep thinking about all the things that need to be done, and not thinking about the fact that life will go on even if they don't get done. I stress myself out about things that it starts to take the fun and adventure out of it.
I just need to chill and let God take over. I know He is saying "chill, I got this!"
Please pray with me as I take this adventure!
"If God is for us, who can be against us?!"
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