One Month of Pain

Last night I had a very very vivid dream that you were in. It was so real that I woke up and forgot about the reality that has become my life, my life you are not in it. It has been a month, and everyday I think about you. My heart is still broken, but I am doing my best to continue on with my life. All I want is to hear you and see you, and squeeze you. I want to talk about our childhood, like we did on a daily basis. I am still struggling with how I am supposed to live in a world without you. I miss you so much, you have been my best friend for 23 years! 23 years of history together, and now, what am I supposed to do!? 

Seeing you in my dream last night was wonderful and terrible at the same time. I got to hear your voice, and it sounded just like you. We hugged for like 2 whole minutes, which was amazing. When I woke up though, it hit me that it was just a dream. I know you are here with me, I know you are with me every single day, and that gives me some peace, but the fact that you are not tangible, is still unreal. I miss seeing your beautiful face.

Your man, J Biebs is doing great. Matt, Danny, and I took him on an adventure the other day. We went to the woods of campus and he went with us, so we could film him or a project Matt had for school. We are introducing him to new music, I'm sure he is living the dream. 

I miss you Lonnie Doodle, I miss you so much! Thank you for being my best friend for 23 whole years. You made my life worth living.